~ what happens on socialmoth ~

smile
radiantly
warmth
spreads
seeps
into
my
skin
slowly
allowing
me
to
hold
you
feel
your
presence
in
me
for
as
long
as
possible
till
i
am
immersed
in
you.
till
i
am
immersed
in
love.
till
i
am
immersed
forever.
till
i
am
immersed
in.
till
i
am
immersed.
till
i
am.
till
i.
till .
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"If I Could Be Like That..."

Thanks very much for asking me to post lots cuz I will. And I'm actually going to try to keep this blog thing as current as possible. Well, when I feel like procrastinating I'll do this. I'm very excited because I just found out I'm a junior marshall. And I'm not even going to try to explain it because I don't feel like it and ya.

I don't really see why people, or rather the person, thinks I write well. I'm the last person who would be an eloquent writer especially with my hypocritical situation of writing however I feel and without any grammatical rules in place. And seeing as how I'm studying this topic, I would be able to use the skills I learned and write properly and amazingly and come off like some sort of genius.

As my sister talks to me, describing her wonderfully lucky day with all her accomplishments and wat not, I get mad because she won't let me focus and write.

Seeing as how this isn't going as well as I planned, Iguess I'll go back to watching QaF. Tis the weekend, you know!

~Miss Muse~

"I say don't you know. You say you don't know. I say...Take me out"

And...
I should be studying for APES because God knows I need to do well or at least decently well actually no reallly well in order to get some sort of an A. I think I deserve it because I work really hard for this class when I shouldn't be. But so do others and they don't get the grade they deserve either.

So, I've been listening to Muse, Dido, Norah Jones, Maroon 5, Daniel Bedingfield on my three cds that move around with me almost everywhere now. It's one of those times in my life where I need to have them in order to keep sane and because it reminds me of how life is right now. Or when I look back and listen to this cd, I'll remember how life was then. How simple it was. The tracks on two of the cds are 16 and on the last one there are 13. The one with the 13 has Secret, Sunday Morning, Jamie Cullum and Dido. And that cd makes me feel like sipping coffee or something in my jammies and watching the view from the sitting room and just smile then take a sip and oh feel soo....lazy but at the same time so graceful and sexy and satisfied and accomplished and Jazzy and just feel good in general. Then when I put in the Muse cd it makes me feel alive, like I'm watching or rather listening to a Dr. Who episode (Muse is british and so is Dr. Who and the music starts of softly then goes to something so totally energizing it wakes me up and makes me wanna just jump and scream and go outside and run and meet people and be active)

But I'm not sure that school is still a priority in life. It's like it's there and I know what is expected of me and I still love it but I have seriously lost interest and Idon't feel motivated whatsoever to do anything. and unfortunately extrinsic things aren't helping me work harder; it's like caffeine, it just doesn't affect me.

So, rhizobial is the kind of bacteria that lives in a symbiotic relationship with the legumes. And they somehow do something with the NO2 or the NO3 and arghhh

"Everything about you resonates happiness
Now I won't settle for less...
Give me all the peace and joy of your mind

I want the peace and joy of your mind"

Verbatim musings of shower monologues....is such an incredible name but such a sucky blog

well...I love the title; but of course I couldn't say the same for the fact that not many people read this so it's sort of perplexing why I keep deciding to write. I actually want to be able to write daily and not care if people read. So far I'm fine with the fact with people not reading because I'm pretty sure there are quite interesting people out there who have more intriguing and outlandish things to say. I've personally never understood why we need to have blogs. I mean I love that I do or rather have the freedom to because this way we can keep anonymity but still with people who read blogs frequently, they can form some sort of relationship with the blogger as though they know them. I like being able to say whatever and just read others' comments, although I lack tonnes of comments. I'm not complaining just musing.
So, usually when I'm showering I always have a radio there playing one of the cds that I constantly play over and over again till feel the song has become part of my life and I can be that song whenever and wherever I want. So, usually once I'm done showering, I usually just stand there, feeling the pellets of the hot water bouncing off of my back, and I lean my shoulder against the wall and just stand there thinking about a myriad of things. Sometimes it's to outline how I should approach to do my homework, like deciding that when I get out, I'll eat, then I'll do some stat, then some spanish then rest a little, watch George Lopez, then do US history and finish everything off before I go to sleep. Then I remind my self that I only work in spurts with loud music blaring through the radio, on shuffle and repeat so I don't have to keep getting interrupted as the cd comes to an end. Then after thinking about how to approach my coming procrastination, I switch topics and go to analyse my love life, or rather lack of it. I review the silly things I can't believe I did that I have to cringe everytime I even try to think about then shake my head vigorously to drive that thought off, and wonder how I could have done things differently. It's like I know I'm a good catch, I have high standards that I'm sure all girls have, and I'm working on both things but I still don't understand why I don't get asked out. It's not important for me to have a relationship now because that's just not a priority; but, to me I feel that once I have had one, I'll stop craving for it for sometime. As in lemme have one to keep me pacified so when I don't have one I won't pine over like I do. That must come across, of the minute few who ever read this or will ever read this, as though, "well, it's like drugs, once you have it you keep wanting more!" But see I don't agree with that at all because, I remember I really wanted to wear clothes from Hollister Co. because I wanted just one item of clothing to make me feel better. Well, I knew my body time wasn't common for their outfits, so I would go in there, tryout things, feel ugly then depressed and then I would generally hate shopping for things because not only do I look indecent but also the cost would be ridiculously high and I didn't want to spend that much for something like clothes. So, when a sale came, and I was slightly more able to find clothes that played my body off well, I bought a pair of brown skinny cordoruy jeans. And ever since then, I haven't wanted a single piece of clothing from there. Ever. So that's how much control I know I have overmyself because I am practical and can accept what is possible and isn't and once I know my limit and I have